Fenn’s Journal Day One

– Day 1

Something happened today. To both of us. When we were at the bus stop this morning, there was this old guy there. I got the strangest feeling around him-like I knew him even though I’ve never seen him around town before. The power inside of me surged when I looked at him. My power only ever awakens when Aurora is in danger. It’s how I knew that something was up with him.

But for some strange reason, I didn’t think that he would hurt her. I felt that he was about to change her. Like if they spoke, she would be put through hell. It took everything in me to keep myself under control. It’s always like that though. I can’t let her know about me. I have a hard enough time trying to convince her that everything is fine when it comes to her accidents with fire. She looks to me to know that everything is okay. I can’t be honest about myself with her and still wear that facade that I’m okay with it…because I’m not. I hate that we don’t have an explanation for why we are the way we are.

It all came crashing down when we got on the bus. He dropped a necklace and when she touched it, she was thrown back into my lap. I knew right away that he was like me.  I knew, because I felt the energy coming off of him and spiking throughout Rory. I wanted to crush him for upsetting her. But when she turned around, her eyes were blood-red. That stopped me in my tracks. It scared the shit out of me. I initially thought that she had some sort of brain damage, but that wasn’t the case. She was changing, though into what I have no clue.

She thinks she’s a Demon or something. A Demon. Really? There’s no way. She has too much life in her to be something like that. Whatever is in her, was brought out by this guy. He knows something about us. But am I really ready to find out? If we go looking, then everything I’ve tried to hide from her will be brought to light.

Maybe if I tell her the truth about myself, it will bring us closer. She is a stickler for being honest. But wouldn’t that be selfish? Would it help her to worry about me? I can’t do that to her. She deserves so much. My need to protect her will always come first. She is my everything and one day she will wake up and see that. I just hope it happens before everything spirals out of control. With this guy in town…there’s no telling when that will happen.



♪ A love of music ♪

Hello Readers!!!

Long time no see right? Sorry…I have a million different things I’ve been trying to accomplish all at the same time lately. Okay, so maybe not a million, but a few too many for sure. And most of the time I can’t even decide which project I should start first, so instead I end up staring off into space rather than being productive. Silly, right?

I digress. 

So recently I’ve been asked what exactly “Echelon Out” means-the little thing I always use as my outro for every blog. Of course some things are better left unanswered, but in this case it’s a perfect opportunity for me to explain how music helped me write my novel Born in Flames.

My most favorite band is 30 Seconds to Mars (the photo above)! They continue to inspire the epicosity of the magic and suspenseful action that makes up the Born in Flames Trilogy. Heck, they are the definition of epicosity! (In my mind at least). The Echelon are the fans that follow them (and I am a HUGE fan), so it’s only fitting that I end my blogs as “Echelon out”-a disguised thank you to them. And if my novel ever hits the big screen, they are the band that I envision playing the theme song for the movie. But that’s just a dream of mine and I only give myself one dream at a time to achieve. My current dream is to go from e-book to paperback…:) I can achieve that by getting as many good reviews as possible, so I’m crossing my fingers that when my novel is finally released, people will fall in love with it and want to leave an awesome review. One can hope.

Any who, so aside from 30 Seconds to Mars being a huge part of what inspires me while writing, I wanted to name a few other bands that I listened to while writing Born in Flames. Paramore was a huge influence. Actually, the singer Hayley Williams, played a part in inspiring my main character Aurora Megalos, from the ruby-red hair down to the feisty personality. A few of their songs that played in my rotation while writing were: Adore, Breathe, Conspiracy, Crushcrushcrush, and Never Let This Go. I was always able to find the perfect song to fit the mood of the scene I was trying to write around Aurora and her feelings in that moment from their albums. 

Another band that was a constant go-to was Mutemath. The voice of the lead singer Paul Meany, helped inspire my other main character Fenn Lovick-Aurora’s best friend and roommate. Whenever their songs played in my rotation, Fenn became easy to visualize. The love songs written by Mutemath such as: You are Mine, Noticed, Clipping, and Pins and Needles, helped evolve Fenn’s love for Aurora from just friends, to someone he could see himself with forever. I wonder if these bands realized when writing these songs, how much of an impact they would have on people. For me it is a blessing. A tiny bud of an idea grew into a hearty tree of a story all thanks to their genius.

On a weird note though, the last main character of Born in Flames is Zordon-the arch-enemy of Aurora. He is the only character that I did not use music to inspire me for. I don’t really know why. Maybe it’s because he is so dark and demented and for him I had to tap into a place that music could never take me. Music lifts me up, makes me feel better even in my darkest mood, and I couldn’t very well accomplish Zordon’s twisted actions with a lovely song playing in the back ground. Actually, I don’t think there’s a song out there that could sum up his evil mind.

And on that happy note (lol), that about sums up the bands that helped inspire me while trying to get out what was swarming inside my mind. There were many other songs that I listened to while writing, but mostly these bands were the few that stuck out and helped me focus. So I leave you with a question: What big thing were you trying to do and what band helped you do it?

That being said, Echelon out ;)